Ok, so I didn't go to that SCA event. I was in bed this morning and I just didn't feel like getting up. I didn't want to go to the event and feel alone like I always do. I think the only reason I go there is to meet women (how patethetic am I?). I haven't faught in years and with the financial situation it is unlikely that I will do so anytime soon. So I figured WTF. So I have been laying around all day. I was having a dream I was talking to my brother. I also rememner feeling depressed and sad about Erica. Geez this sadness is invading my dreams. I remember FEELING upset. I can't remember feeling anything in my dreams in a long time. This is getting bad.

As I am sitting here trying to figure out what I want to do. There's no-one around I want to hang out with. And the people I do, are always too busy. When did my life become this? Maybe I should move back to New Mexico.